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Today my blog is gonna be different in comparison to the usual stuff I post. I'm not sure if I'm being unusaully sensitive or just seeking understanding. To hear that you're not the only person feeling something or that you're not hopelessy insane for feeling that way has a rather good effect on your ego (if you know what i mean).

So I have this friend who is like totally my other half, inseperable used to be an understatement for us... Things have changed though... A couple of weeks ago we started fighting over the most moronic things ( I mean seriously stupid stuff)...

It didn't bother me really because in every relationship where 2 people share as much as we did fights are bound to occur. But then the heart breaking tragedy of my seemingly pathetic life happened.... My friend gave upi faith in a friendship that meant no still means more than life to me... My backbone, my strength, the voice inside my head and out is gone... Desserted and left with no closure.... Why???

 What have I done that was so terrible to suffer a loss this great... Why does everybody keep saying it'll be ok when clearly I don't feel ok.... Why do people choose the most vulnerable times (and of course the time when you're the most irrational person) to try and give you advise?? Do they think what they say before they decide that they're trained proffesionals in the psychological field??

Why would anybody think that i would see reason when they probably haven't shared half of what we have together??

Why do i wanna claw my eyes out? Am i trying to stop the tears or am I trying to divert the pain in my heart?

I don't have the answers, but maybe someone out there does...

Do I really wanna know the answers though?

All I know  and am positive of is that I miss my dear friend and life seems unbearable... Reality has taken it's toll... DO I LOVE MY FRIEND MORE THAN I HAVE CHOSEN TO BELIEVE?!?

Somebody, anybody, pwwweeeeeeeeeeesssssss HELP...

 

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I FORGOT...   I forgot what life is all about ...   I forgot what it meant to cry ...   I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy ...   And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart ..   I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future ...    I forgot that you can't control falling in love ..   And that you can't make yourself fall in love .   and if you really do fall in love, then you can't make yourself fall OUT of love ..   I learned that I can love ...    I learned that it's okay to mess up .   And it's okay to ask for help .   And it's okay to feel like hell .   I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day ...    I've learnt that sometimes the things you want most, you just can't have.   I've learnt that the greatest thing about life isn't the parties or the hook-ups .......   It's the friendships, which means taking chances ...   I've learnt that sometimes, the things we want to forget, are the things that we most need to talk about ...   I've learnt that letters from friends are the most important things and that sending cards to friends makes you feel better.    But basically,   I've just learnt that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the entire world ...   AND .   without them, I wouldn't be who I am today ...       So, this is a thank you to all of my friends .. for always being there.   And even if we are not on good terms any more, or we have lost touch ...   I still care for you ...

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A person can make you feel high,
A person can make you feel low.
But only you can decide,
Which way you want to go.

A person can hurt you mentally,
A person can hurt you physically.
But only you can place,
A limit on your abilities.

A person can cause drama,
A person can cause a situation.
But only you can create,
Your own reputation.

A person can make you laugh,
A person can make you cry.
But only you can make,
Decisions for your life.

So 
Don't live by what people do,
But live by what you know is true.

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I feared people's opinions

Until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.

I feared rejection

Until I learned to have faith in myself.

I feared pain

Until I learned that it's necessary for growth 

People may have an opinion about me; God has a plan for me

Be strong, f#ck what people think

It's my life

Only God can judge me

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When I was alone and had nothing

I asked 4 a friend 2 help me bear the

pain no one came except...GOD

when I needed a breath 2 rise

from my sleep no one could

help me except....GOD

when all I saw was sadness

and I needed answers no one

heard me except ....GOD

so when I am asked who I

give my unconditional love 2

look for no other name

except.....GOD!

                    The Lords blessings make me wiser as the worlds turning

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I'm sexy, I'm cute, I'm popular to boot.

I'm rigid, great hair, the boys all love to stare.

I'm wanted, I'm hot, I'm everthing you're not...

Who am I? just guess... Guys wanna touch my chest....

hate me cause i'm beautiful, well I don't like you either...

 

 

have you figured out what or who i am yet???

I'm a cheerleader hahahahaha....

 

sorry i was bored peeps... needed to get that out my head....lol

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I just realised something....this is so true

The following is so sad and unfortunately it's true. To any girls reading this, let it be an eye opener or a reminder, look at what's right in front of you! You could find what you've been looking for all along. And to any guys reading this, I speak for the girls who don't take nice guys for granted, and if we have ever made any of you feel like this we're so sorry!!!
~Annonymous

BEGIN:
I'm sorry
that I bought you roses
to tell you that i like you

I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you when you were drunk

I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants

I'm sorry
that I open your car door,
and pull out your chair like I was raised

I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"

I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not a jerk

I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things

I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club

I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you then just screw you
like some random guy.

I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to,
but never good enough to date

I'm sorry
That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,
but when we went out you went home with another guy

I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,
but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend

I'm sorry
If I start not being there because it hurts being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new jerk comes around

I'm sorry
If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work

I'm sorry
that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.

I'm sorry
If you read this and know somebody like this
but don't care

But most of all

I'm sorry
For not being sorry anymore

I'm sorry
That you can't accept me for who I am

I'm sorry
I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good
enough to make it in your world.

I'm sorry
I caught your boyfriend with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for...

I'm sorry
That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.

I'm sorry
That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your boyfriend was threatening you instead of spending time with my family.

I'm Sorry
That I cared

I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night talking about how you wish you could have done something different.

Ladies always complain and gripe to their friends that there is never any good guys out there, and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them. Well ladies next time you're complaining, maybe look up to see who you're complaining to, maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual, screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"
Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.

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Remember

Remember that your presence is a present to the world.

Remember that you are a unique and unrepeatable creation.

Remember that your life can be what you want it to be.

Remember to count your blessings, not your troubles.

Remember that you'll make it through whatever comes along.

Remember that most of the answers you need are within you.

Remember those dreams waiting to be realized.

Remember that decisions are too important to leave to chance.

Remember to always reach for the best that is within you.

Remember that nothing wastes more energy than worry.

Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

Remember that the longer you carry a grudge, the heavier it gets.

Remember not to take things too seriously.

Remember to laugh.

Remember that a little love goes a long way.

Remember that a lot goes forever.

Remember that happiness is more often found in giving than getting.

Remember that life's treasures are people, not things.

Remember that miracles still happen.

 

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  If you don't know GOD, don't make stupid remarks!!!!

 

A United States Marine was attending some college courses between assignments. He had completed missions in Iraq and Afghanistan . One of the courses had a professor who was an avowed atheist and a member of the ACLU.
One day the professor shocked the class when he came in. He looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, "God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes."
 The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, "Here I am God. I'm still waiting."
 It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him; knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence.
 The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the Marine and asked, "What the heck is the matter with you? Why did you do that?" The Marine calmly replied, "God was too busy today protecting America's soldiers who are protecting your right to say stupid stuff and act like an idiot. So, He sent me."

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What is a friend?

 

A friend is someone who listens

Is there through thick and thin

Gives praise and understanding

Mends the hurt

 

A friend will pass the judgment

Accepts us as we are

Will lend an ear or shoulder

Whether near or far

 

At times if we should stumble

Or somehow lose our way

Friends will be the stepping stone

And show us the light

 

They'll laugh with us when happy

And cry with us when blue

Will love without conditions

Hearts, sincere and true

 

What is a friend, the question

The answer, very clear

A friend is YOU, for certain

My gift from God, I'm sure!!!

 

Thank you for being in my life!!!

 

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May you not eat agter die bak and think bad thoughts about bad people

 

and skinner and be lazy and not make salaah and swallow when you make abdas(wudhu)

 

and be moeilik and swear at other people in traffic and bunk tarawee, and may u be granted the strength to do

 

labarang (eid) shopping without swearing at da slams that stole your parking when it is already congested and hot

 

and you just wanna go home and sleep....

 

so in other words may your ramadhaan be a success inshallah ameen!

 

please remember me and my family in your pious duas as we will remember you in ours!

 

ramadhaan mubarak!

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