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Today this entry will be filled with great smiles and bear hugs, only fairtales will be proclaimed as this is a new day... Or maybe not!

I have never really been a big fan of any of the fairytales. I mean, I would also want to loose my ballet pump in the club and then have some mysterious stranger come searching for me in the dusty streets of Soweto or Eldo's or Ennerdale to sweep me off my feet. Chances are he is not going to find me in any of those places because as a modern chick I live in the burbs and as a modern chick why would I leave a 200 rand shoe there? Am I nuts? Hell no! Fairy God tannie will just have to wait with her pumpkin changing because you know I am going back! So yes as a child you do have this picture of what love is supposed to be like. I used to listen to my mom while we sat on our couch in Newclair and think to myself: " Wow, a pumpkin changing into a carriage... Now that is one cheap Fairy!" But non the less I saw myself as the princess and the somewhat cute kid from next door as the prince but like in fairytales reality soon kicks you in the behind. The prince turns out ot be a frog and you will kiss a few of those in your lifetime and you will give up on finding your Prince. Because lets be honest, your prince is not the handsome blonde guy on a white horse. He is flesh and blood and usually has a nagging mother right next to him or an over religious one or a meddling one, he has a baby momma, he has an attatude when you not in " the mood". Your prince is far from perfect my dear. Oh yes, he farts and burps and never puts the toilet seat down. Your prince is more like a Prince Non Charming but we love them non the less. Warts and all ( as he might have a few of those too) we try to see the beauty in them but some of them, not all, always seem to only show their bad side after time.

There is of course the odd one out who with all his faults you never ever notice the weird and whacky side of him. He actually pardons himself when he is being gross, the one who rubs your feet when you are pregnant and who tells you how amazing you are first thing in the morning when you armpits are smelly and your breath smells like old shoes. Those my friends are like rare gem stones in this world. I believe that it never happens like in the fairytale. It takes the kissing of more than one frog to find that Mr. Amper Right. It might take you the rest of your life but they are out there. Somewhere hiding from us because they know we are about to put our clutches in them and never let go.

Then of course there are my girls out there who cannot wait for Mr. Amper Right so they gather up a flock of men and make themselves a good man. Which I am not against at all. You go girl! You know the flock ladies, the rich, the gorgeous, the care taker, the minister of finance... the list goes on. Big ups to you because you have more sexual stamina than I do. Because that way you get 100% of love. You do, really because each one of them gives you what you want when you want it. Now of course some poeple would look down on this but why because at least those few lucky ladies are getting what they need and are not stuck on stupid like the rest of us. Now remember as a modern lady we are safe in our "activities" because we know what the dangers are. I am not going to get deep and speak about AIDS and STD's but they are a reality in this world so cover up when going out in the rain please divas. We are an eductaed generation of beauties and it should be reflecting in all we do, especially what we do when the lighyts go out and Marvin Gay is in the house and you are being taken to places you have never been before. Oh my! you are crawling up walls and speaking in tongues... Just be safe and remeber to keep the noise down. You do have neighbours after all.

Now, as I was saying... Fairytales. We won't find all that in life but we can make our own fairtales so do not set unrealistic goals for yourself. Just remember to love like you have never been hurt. But for teh ladies who do have those Mr. Amper Rights. Hold onto him girl! You know that there is another lady out there who sees in him what you see and if you don't see it in him, watch your back because someone worthy will snatch him up in time. It is the way of the world. Survival of the deepest soul as they say. Because what can be seen as one girls dark is another girls light and so on it will go. But what is not for you is for someone else. Some chicks actually can live with alot of abuse( there I go again being deep) and alot of pain for a long time and then there are those who put on those hills and get the stepping. But it is not for all of us and then we go through life feeling like a shadow. So not everyone gets their Happy Ending even though we would love one!

So there you have it, love is not the happy ending and not the glass slipper or in this case the 200 rand ballet pump being put on your foot in the end. It is more about knowing what you want in love and going after it. Whether it takes you months or years. Step out there knowing that you are a being of substance and demand that attention.

I am out of here once again so do yourself a favour this week. Buy yourself a pair of really expensive shoes or a jeans that says "WATCH OUT!" have cocktails with the girls and keep it real. Always remember to be you no matter what!

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As I sit here tonight there are many things going through my mind. I was wondering to myself what I should put down on this blank piece of online paper and then it dawned on me, my feelings are the best thing. Now I write about love and most of all the things that we do or don't do in love but today I want to write about the things we want to do when inlove and what we seem to compremise when inlove.

We forget who we were before we met the people we let into our lives. We forget the things we used to do. Now I have said before that you should be good to you but how many of us actually do that? Not many and I can say that sometimes I too forget that being good to me comes first beforwe anything else. I get upset with myself because I just seem to let myself slide every now and again and then it takes a compliment from a complete stranger to make you realise that you truly are beautiful inside and out( YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT SO DON'T PRETEND YOU DON'T) You walking through a mall and from the corner of your eye is this guy or gal just staring at you. Now you think that they are probably looking at the Gucci shades in the window of the shop behind you, so you brush your hair aside and smile... you know that shy smile you reserve for those odd drunk moments in a club when you trying to get the attetion of another drunk guy or gal. They smile back and it comes crashing down on you like cascading waves that... DAMN!!! He( or she) is actually looking right at me. So you smile that shy smile again and walk away still brushing your hair back. That is that rare moment when you realise that, wow, I am actually that cute to someone. But why? because you forgot that you are a being of substance and beauty and you still posses that look that demands attention. Now I am not saying that we all realise that but what I am saying is that a moment like that should slap you straight back to reality and make you realise that just because you are with someone doesn't mean you put those Nine West pumps way back in the closet and you hide that sexy little number... (you know the one you wore to your friend Deborahs cocktail party and that lawyer took your number?) No way no how!! As females we should realise that even though the one you are with doesn't appreciate your pink lipgloss or the way you cross your legs when you sipping on a martini, there is someone out there who sees you for the gorgeous, talented and briiliant being you are. And yes, sometimes we as females forget it but let me just say this... don't. you are too beautiful and too wonderful to let that getb you down. You're a diva in your own right. You demand respect and attention and don't ever forget that. So whether you are inlove, out of love or just what I call stuck on stupid( you know what it means by now) you still have a right to embrace that freak in you and step out with your best Aldo forward.

No one can take away that flame within you unless uyou let them. It is a command from the Gods who gave you that zest, that gorgeous body and that killer smile. It is a command that you be sexy, feel sexy and act sexy. Remember that the way you feel inside is how everyone sees you. So no matter how hard the love life gets remember to keep that chin up and step out with that smile that makes the guy at the coffee shop always want to give you extra sugar( free or not) You owe it to yourself to always keep it real. Be you no matter what the situation. They don't want to be change. The age old excuse is : You found me like this baby, why would you want to change me? Well toss him that same line the next time he asks you why you wearing something he thinks is too sexy.. I am just saying take back the power you possessed and if you didn't have that power then it is time you took it back now. Not only for you but for all of us! We are women in a generation where we wear the pants... Oh yes and the tie and the shirt so let us wear them with pride. I say this not only to you as my sistas and girls and cousins but I say this to myself to. Let us not sit back and wait for it to happen. Go out there and make it happen like never before. We are coming with hunder and whoever is outside when the storm hits better watch themselves!!!

So ladies, divas of this century. Keep yourself no matter what. Never loose your essence. Toss your toys out the cot, make a scene for bad service, buy shoes you know you cannot afford!!! Your a woman with style and vibe and let no one tell you any different. I will leave you with this:  "I am determined to always retain my mischievous inner youth"- Allison DuBois

That's it from me. Go and conquer!

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If time could stand still I am sure there are a million and one things that I could think about doing. But it doesn't and it has made me realise that I have to take life by the balls and roll with it.

It is amazing how you can regret something when it is all over and done. When you break someones heart or turn down a job opportunity that you thought was not for you. Times like this you sit back and think about all the people who have made some kind of impact on your life. The good, the bad and the ugly. It brings to mind a dear friend of mine, Paragon, who just recently broke up with his girl and he made a great statement. He told me that everyone thinks that he really perhaps didn't care about them because he isn't mopping around with a blade in one hand and a rope in the other. But he reconise that it is of no use to be all depressed about something that you tried your best to prevent. Hell! It really is over, why are you crying? And he has a point. Life does go on and it hurts like hell but it just won't help much if you give up on love and life because if you did then something even better might pass you by. As I say, peace of heart is peace of mind. Paragon is a great friend to me, has always been but in a time like this what do you tell someone who had such major plans for himself and the love of his life? I don't know what to say to him because there is nothing to say. I would probably put my foot in my mouth ( and he knows it). But I did tell him that as long as he knows he tried his best then it is fine because your best is always good enough right? Wrong!!! Yes, wrong. No one believes that bull. If I was hurting and I said that to me I would beat me up. I would whip me's ass!!! Because my best was obviously not good enough because she is not with me now is she? But Paragon is a sweet guy so he wouldn't tell me to get over it. And he is an amazing guy. Not only is he intelligent but he is kind and very talented( Please watch out for his album to be released soon) but in life I guess that nothing happens the way we plan. It isn't fair but it is the way it is supposed to be. It is the way your life is and was supposed to go all alng. It is written before your birth. I know we all want a re write now and then but there are no do overs in this script. Think of your life like a Broadway play. Now for those of us who don't know what broadway is, it is were my peep Brent is going. It is where plays are done. Like a movie but live so as jy droog maak... Sorry shame. Kan nie oor begin. But that is the glory of life. You make mistakes and learn. But like I have said some of us are still either stuck on stupid or some other kind of "will never change". But the fact that you can't do over is what is so amazing. You slip fall and yes you do make alot of eye balls but it is glorious because you are allowed to, just learn from it ok! If you don't well then you have missed the point and the mark...

So yes if you have also broken up with a love then I feel your pain but move on and if you don't then you are sitting back while tons of girls and guys pass your way. Because if he or she left you then you have to move on because they are moving on without you just fine. Love will come around again and it will be amazing! It will blow you away and you will fall like you fell before abd you won't make the same mistakes again because you have learnt from them...

Let this last forever

 Holding you in my arms feels so right

I pary that this moment could last forever

As I close my eyes I embrace you presence entirely

The smell of you enitces me completely

I love the scent of your skin and the touch of your hand

My heart can't help but skip a beat when you brush against me

When you look into my eyes I float away

Like those circus baloons on a windy day, far away

I feel safe in these arms that seem to hold the key to freedom

If this is what dreams are made of, please let is last forever

I never need to be without this bliss as long as I have you

Without your kiss, without your being

What we have is like the ocean, endless, turbulent yet so beautiful

Loving me for me is what you do so allow this to

Last forever

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There are days when I want to go back to times when everythign was simpler. No worrying about anthing. Then I slap myself and realise it was nothing more than a sweet dream that some how got blown away by the wind of " messed it all up".

I say this because like I have said before, we make everything so complicated. Especially when we lie. Now I know that both sexes, male and female know what it feels like to be in a situation where you are being lied to or you are lying. It hurts, whether you are a guy or a chick. But why do we do it? Because what we have at the moment is not good enough. What we have in a relattionshop is just not "what we expected". But why not just come out and say it? Because we cannot risk loosing the sure thing for the maybe. I know, stupid! No, true. It is for this reason ladies that your man is busy chattign up his ex and for the same reason you feel because he is doing this that perhaps you should. It is for this reason that relationships are stuck on the same stop for years. Alot of so called successful relationships fail all the time and only because some idiot( male or female) didn't have the guts to tell you to take a hike! It is because you are too afraid to take a risk of being with someone who is just not for you in anyway possible. I speak about relationships because they are usually the cause of your disfunction. Don't act like you don;t know!!! You see, hear or find something you don;t like and you turn into someone you didn't know existed. You turn into a blood thirsty, bitchy, needy stalker who just cannot let go. You throw your toys out of the cot and if pushed even further you tend to cause harm. And who can blame you? No one but yourself because we tend to get stuck on stupid for all the crazy reasons. It is like smoking. It is bad for you but boy oh boy does it hit the right spot. One puff and it is all better. I don't want to tell you how to live your life or who to love. But at soem point we all have to realise that self love is the start to all possibilities. And no, I didn't watch Oprah. I just believe that if you take even just 15 minutes out of your day to be with yourself and realise just how great you are, everyone around you will see it to. Perhaps even that idiot who lies and cheats on you and who sits up all night chatting to his spare and keeps track of the latest MXIT scandal to check the young naked girls and who  stopped taking you out to chill with his friends and who won't touch you with a ten foot pole and who would rather be out drinking than home with you and who would prefer to make dates with the ex to " hook up for coffee" with the "old crew"... Yes you know it is the way it is and there is no ther way there is. So be good to you boys and girls. Really. Just be you and that will be good enough. Get your hair did, buy a new sexy fit jeans and low cut top. Go out and buy yourself a drink because you are good to you. Beyonce said it better when she said: Let's go lil kitty cat. That's right, you and kitty will be just fine. And the same goes to the gents. Get that new Uzzi t shirt you wanted with the KG jeans. You buy yourself a drink and be good to the one person you can depend on.

Simple. That's right. It is as simple as changing your g-string. Remember that the only time someone can take away your inner self worth is if you allow them to. So leave the Dear John letter if you like or ask the Question Who do you love. But whatever you do my friends be good to you and stay true to you, always.

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It is some kind of miracle that in love we tend to always mistake the seed for the soil and infactuation for love. We seem to never learn from our mistakes or that you as an individual can never make someone feel for you what you feel for them.

The joys! Yes, it is a subject that has been discussed and debated over many centuries but I tell you today that love, like life is simple. We just complicate things. As human beings we just seem to have a tendancy to mess things up because of our insecurities, our lusts, our minds plagued with thoughts of another. And yet we fall inlove time and time again. I used to ask myself why but then one day realsed that not only does it feel so damn good to love and be loved but also, it feels good to love, be loved, feel loved but most of all. It is amazing to share your every day, every thought and every emotion with someone else. It is human. It is life.

" If music be the food of love, play on" William Shakespear- Twelfth Night. A simple quote that rings so true. If music is the food, the essence, that feeds love. Please do play on...

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