Posted by: nish in Untagged on
Sep 05, 2008
My girls, Zayaan and Zafira. Fighters and Survivors!!!!
Both fought tooth and nail to be born into this world. Born almost 2 months premature,both have become my fighters. Their tenacity shows especially with Zayaan's personality. She has truly become my strength!!! My nunu punu!!!
Zafira also has a really special place in my heart. My pride!! My child that actually looks a lil like me. It's early to say but she too has a bit of a temper who everday amazes me. 2 months old and fondly known as , My Boebela!!!
My morning routine, Get up for prayers, Get done for work, Move them into our bed, kiss them goodbye and leave. Today however, I did not move them , I let them sleep. I kiss them goodbye and whisper sweet messages to them, you know the usual "Daddy loves you" "I'm gona miss you" "Be good for mommy" "Love you sister" etc ... but today, I added something " I'm coming home early" and in a flash, Zayaan was awake. "Where my Dadda?" "Dadda gona make salaah?". So kiss her again, and tell her that I will be home early today. Lay her on her pillow and close her eyes and off to sleep she goes.
My kids are my life! I may not be the best dad in the world but I sure as hell am gona try. I may not give them all that their hearts desire but what I give them will be the best. I dread the day when I hear the screams across the room "I hate you daddy". That day I will make sure to let them know that I will love them no matter what. I will ensure they know that I am always there for them. They will never be left wanting or wondering where their daddy is.
Posted by: nish in Untagged on
Sep 04, 2008
I'm a bit pissed off!!! For a few days now, there have been topics about religion and was amazed at the intolerance some of us have towards other peoples religions. It's actually sad that in todays day and age we still have discrimination and hatred based on religion. However, that's not why I'm so angry.
What pisses me off is the lack of Muslim interaction. Somebody is attacking us and where are you? On occasions this week and last week when there were religious debates and Islam was slandered, nobody stood up to say "Whoa.... Stop the cart right there!!". Slinging matches were going back and forth and not a single muslim made their voice known. Was it out of fear of being discovered that you are in fact a muslim and proud to be one? In fact the most vocal defender of muslims was actually a Christian fellow and I commend him for his efforts and Thank him. So Spiderman, I thank as a muslim for having our back.
Now back to where my muslim brothers and sisters were. Why do we feel the need to hide the fact that we muslim. It was stated in a thread that we are the monority religion in our country and why should the major religions bow down to ours. How can we possibly want other religions to bow down to us if we can't even fight to preserve the good name of our own religion. In anonymity we hide our religion out of fear of being ostricised. Pisses me off. We are proud people and have to be proud about our way life.
Posted by: nish in Untagged on
Sep 03, 2008
Ok, it's the fasting month and although this has nothing to do with the topic, I just had to throw it in there for effect. So after having Sehri (early morning meal before we start fasting), I go for my morning prayers and my wife and kids oblivious to the fact that I'm not there are sleeping blissfully.
I come home after morning prayers and sit and read a bit and throw in a load of washing. While the washing is going, I pop onto my bedroom and check on my wife ...Fast asleep ... Check on the girls, also fast asleep. Move them from their cot and bed into our bed ... Now all three my girls are sleeping soundly in one bed ...
So I go and have a shower, all fresh for the day ahead, I come back down and put in another load of washing and proceed to my room where I get done for work now ... Catching a glimpse of my girls and how sweet they all look when they asleep, I can't help but think how lucky I am. I must have done something good to have three georgeous girls in my bed .. lol
Watching them sleep made me want to get back into bed. Phone work and tell them "I'm taking a personal day" but I had to pry myself away because I have alot to get done. On my way to work, I couldn't help but wonder what exactly I did right to deserve all three my girls! I racked my brain till almost all the way to work and decided to just say "Thank You God/Allah. You have blessed me with abundance!"
Posted by: nish in Untagged on
Aug 24, 2008
So last week my neice has become yet another statistic. Coloured meddie with 1 and a half kids and divorced!!! WTF! I actually thought it was an ok laaitie but guess what,I was wrong , so wrong. When I first found out I was like neh, not N....., he seemed like such a genuine ou. Then the stories started coming out! The abuse, both physical and emotional. I wanted to mess him up because nobody raises a hand for anybody in MY FAMILY!!! That thought passed when wifey calmed me down.
Now this brings me to my point , when are people gona realise " Trou is nie perd koop nie" i.e Marriage aint easy! We have too many young people getting married just so that they can get their freedom and don't take the time to really assess their lives. If your courtship was miserable then chances are your marriage will be much the same.
So I ask, when are we gona stop our young adults making what may be the biggest mistakes of their lives?
Posted by: nish in Untagged on
Jul 24, 2008
What did I accomplish? what have I done with my life?
Well, I'm married to one of the most wonderful people in the world. I have two really really beautiful kids. I have an okay career, still not sure if thats what I want to do. Still, there seems to be something missing. I don't know what it is but I am getting an innate feeling that there has to be something more that I have to be doing with my life. I don't know what it is but I know it's something.
Recently I have been toying with the idea of going to work overseas for while and see what that yields. Ofcourse my family will be going with me but both my wife and I are wondering about the rest of our family, our parents etc. I don't know what to do because the search isn't going too well. Not too sure if this is whats missing.
If it's not about going to go and work overseas, then whats missing?
Have I failed myself? I don't think so because I am happy. But why am I questioning my life? I have all these questions but no answers, I even have questions that are so vague that I don't even know what the question is.
I have a pretty fulfilling life and this feeling is bothering me. Who do I turn to? Who can I ask to guide me? Who has the answer?
Posted by: nish in Untagged on
Apr 10, 2008
What happening to us? It has become evident that the norm is to criticise and ridicule each other. My week started as normal week, I came to and logged on to my favorite hoping to get my daily dose of escapism. That was hardly what I found. I was confronted with what may seem, according to me , the harsh reality that we as colored folk cannot get along.
Admittedly I am not to blame, I jumped right in and got involved in the whole mix. Something that I am not accustomed to. Debating something on an intellectual or even tactful level seems to have seriously been discarded. This behaviour carried on for most of the day but did not end there, NOOOO, it continued with the days to come.
I was disgusted with myself, because, that is not who I am. I was disgusted with the way I was acting. With each post, the fire was growing, people seemed to become more and more aggitated with each other. If we were all in one room,I am sure a brawl would have ensued.
Sitting hear and thinking about the weeks events, I cannot help but wonder how many of us have actually realised how childish we were. If an outside observer were to log on at that time to learn about BO's, what message were we sending? Were we living up to the sterotype that is BO's?
The violence happening in 'Cyber Space" coupled with the speech made by some minister got me thinking. We live in a violent society, what is it that our kids are going to learn from us? Are we gona teach them that if a fellow BO looks at you "skeef" then they are a "teef" or "thief" or even looking to lock horns with you. To see who actually is the Alpha Male.
Unfortunately, I have to go ... but will continue this when I return.
