Blog Entries for Gemini_01

From today

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 00:00:00 +0100

From today I give you all of me.

From today I no longer will hold back as I have in the past.

From today I will LOVE you with all that I am.

From today I want to hold you in my arms and in my Heart and not ever let go.

From today I open the doors of my soul and let you in.

From today I will cherish every moment I have with you.

From today I give you the woman that I am.

From today embrace you LOVE.

From today I close the doors of sadness [...]

20.06.03

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I'm going on a journey
Somewhere far from here
Though not sure of my destination
I know that I should not fear.

Though many dangers await me
and many burdens may come my way
That is where i want to be

I somtimes dream,
but with my eyes wide open.
I see the road on which i travel. For a long distance the road is straight,
and than sudeenly a wide river appears. But i know i should not fear.
So i lift my hands up to the sky and [...]

No Emotion

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I sit here trying to feel, or understand what I'm feeling. But there's nothing. Im numb. It saddens me to think that I don't or can't feel anything. I am one who relies on emotions to tell me if I'm write or wrong, instinct, if one can call it that.

Maybe, just maybe, just for once, I am to rely on my mind to help me. I think that I am supposed to "think". Now this sounds so contradictory right now, because I tend to think a lot. But when it comes to [...]

SPIRALED OUTA CONTROL..

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Im a creature of habit and routine is a way of life me, not knowing shait scares me. More so not knowing what the next moment hold, funny, because no one knows that. See I like to sorta predict what happens next, even while watching a CSI or Law and order, I try to figure things out just like them.

So I like knowing things and even though im slightly off , sometimes wat off lol, feels good knowing I have tried.

NOW nothing could prepare me, not eve [...]

Blast from the past

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 00:00:00 +0100

We were more than friends, but never lovers. Our relationship somewhere in between. You cared for me and me for you, but somehow we just could never seem to find each others hearts.

I remember the day my lips first touched yours, I was in awe at how gentle it felt, but the feelings inside of me erupted like a volcano giving birth to its lava.

Than I got the message, "1 message received." Not surprised, I check the name and take a deep breath...I blink [...]

A greatful heart

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Today I sit here with my Heart over flowing with gratitude... i cant stop thanking God for what he has done in my life. God does things for a reason... A while ago I thought I wasnt going to make it, but I clung to the hem of His garment and He raised me up to be victorious. It may not seem liek much to some, but to me, it means everything... My Heart sings a song of praise and the enemy flees in fear...

Thank you Jesus....

More thoughts

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Mon, 09 Jun 2008 00:00:00 +0100

In this world we are always going to encounter hurt, pain, suffering, negativity, dissappointment...I can go on and on. Butit is in these times that we need to open our heats to the extended Love that God has for us

I've learnt that God allows certain things to happen to us to bring us closer to Him. We need to understand that He is not trying to hurt us or shun us, but make us stronger in Faith, Love, and TTrust in Him.

Thoughts

bhendricks@fnb.co.za — Wed, 04 Jun 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I sit here overwhelmed by my emotions. it used to be so easy to keep control of it, but since that day its become hard not to listen to my inner voice. Every time i think abotu it my inner being turns ice cold.You say that im imagining things and that im making myself feel this way. maybe I am but cant I make it go away? Why does the voice keep coming back?

I cant rememebr what I was like before all this.